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Monday, 20 November 2017

A Student Again

 بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيم

Hi people!

I completed my degree last May and after I have finished enjoying my very much blessed raya, I started looking jobs in my hometown. I applied for tuition teacher, kindergarten teacher and guru ganti as well. I was not looking for high-paying job but rather a job that can actually enrich my experiences and develop my skills. After two interviews and two disappointments, I ended up jobless. T___T. So I went back to my previous job - writing assignments and designing blogs. And oh ya! I actually started translating and content writing short articles for a website! So thrilled!

But still, I wanted to teach so bad. I miss my students, I miss the hustle of preparing lessons, having fun with the class and talking to my colleagues. I was and am determined to teach. I like teaching soooo much especially when it comes to secondary students. While I was busy doing all those small jobs, I actually applied for my master degree at UKM. I remember telling myself that once I have finished my degree, that's it for me. I won't further my study. Degree is troublesome enough. But there I was, applying for master with such big hopes. XD

Around August, I received an email telling me I have been accepted for Master in English Language Studies at UKM. Alhamdulillah. I was very grateful and excited because I had always wanted to study at IPTA because I had enough of IPTS hahaha. I don't mean anything bad. I just want to experience studying in IPTA. I just want to experience the differences. So I registered on last September.
A STUDENT AGAIN *yeayyyyy*
Master study is AH-MA-ZING! But boyyyyy, it is exhausting! I have to read and read and read. Mind you, reading is my favourite, maybe my ULTIMATE favourite but reading scholarly articles is not my forte. I took around 4 weeks to finish reading three articles and that was because the deadline scared me that I decided to read them.
My November schedule is not cool at all. 
I didn't remember sitting for discussion in library during my degree years lol. It's not bad actually.
Library is fine, I guess.
But it's been almost three months and it started growing on me. I can't believe I'm saying this, but there are times when I'm actually feel inclined to look for more reading materials. Lololol. But of course, not necessarily I read them after I found them. Haha. Don't be deceived y'all. But yeah, I started to feel okay with all the reading. But going to class? Dang, I still feel all giddy and excited for every class. I would like to think it as a positive thing because feeling happy for class is good, right?

There are times when I feel the work loads are too much but I brace myself. I'm doing this for my parents who I've let down during my SPM. So, I just think that I should go extra miles to show them that I actually take my education seriously and I really want to redeem my SPM result. I pray that I will be granted enough strength to complete this course. Aamiin.

Lemme share with you how abang cafe took my order. I asked for Nasi Goreng Kampung Pedas and he key-ed in Nasi Goreng Kampung pedasssss gile. OMG do you have to be so extra??!
The amount of chilies in my friend's sup daging. I counted it guys. 23 chilies. For a small pack of sup daging. They are so extra.  

But food are cheap in IPTA. I'm super happyyyyy! :D

That's all for now.
Thanks for reading and have a blessed day, everyone!

Sunday, 19 November 2017

False Frustration

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
Hi people!

I've been in relationship with my significant other for 4 years and few months, I think. We started off as friends and after school, things started to look serious and I decided to give it a go since I felt like I was big enough to handle feelings and emotional problems. LOL. He's amazing and very understanding. I was lucky enough to have him but is he lucky to have me? Kahkah. I'm dramatic and I tend to run away during fights. It's not nice and I am always scolded for this kind of attitude.

Anyway, we once had a terrible fight because I felt neglected and ignored. Hahaha I know it's stupid but it sure did not feel stupid at that time. I was being a bit dramatic but he understood me way too much, he saw and expected everything beforehand. Danggg. After almost an hour, we both came to a decision that we should talk. WhatsApp was not enough as our texts could be read in the wrong or different intonation and of course, will lead to many more misunderstandings.

So I called him. Since I always pour my heart out, I asked him if he ever felt frustrated or disappointed with me. I wanted him to be honest with me. So he said, yes. My heart broke but I knew that I had to know what did I do wrong so I could change myself for us. I asked him to list things that frustrate him about me, one by one.

He started with cactus. He asked me if I remember about the cactus he bought me? I said yes. It was the first gift after we confessed to each each other and such a bizarre one too. I never had a plant as a gift before so of course, I was very happy with that. I asked what about that cactus and us that disappointed him? He said, how could I leave that cactus behind when he went to Cameron Highland just to buy me that very cactus? I was dumbfounded. And then I laughed.

Because I still had that freaking cactus with me! I changed the pot once and bought new compost twice. I WENT THROUGH ALL THE HUSTLE TO BRING THAT CACTUS HOME FROM KELANA JAYA. Imagine guys, taking home a thorny growing cactus in a bus from Kelana Jaya. I laughed some more because actually guys, he was the one who left the cactus behind. He finished his foundation study at UiTM and just forgot about that cactus when he was packing for home.

He stunned and seriously asking if I was being serious. I said yes. I brought that cactus home. It survived for two years before it got wilted because of the inconsistent weather in my hometown. I said I could show pictures of that cactus if he wanted to see it. Then he laughed nervously and said sorry because he didn't remember leaving his cactus. Well, forgetting about that cactus is understandable but from where did he get the idea that I'm the one leaving the cactus behind? SMH.

This whole situation really made me realise that men are really forgetful. But mine is worrying. He's forgetful and tend to plant new and FALSE memory in his head. God, please save him and his terrible memory. Anyway, I had a good laugh that night and I could feel all the frustration went away. It's crucial to talk to each other when you have problems, not talking about each other with some other people. This is his philosophy by the way.

Anyway, be it your family, boyfriend, fiancee and of course, your friends - ALWAYS CHERISH THEM. I am not really blessed in the look department lol, but God send me loads of good friends. I have people who keep supporting me through thick and thin. Sure, we fought, we made fun of each other and hurl vocal abuses when we had the chances to, yet I'm really thankful for everyone in my life. I have lost some of friends throughout the years of not keeping in touch with them and of course, because of myself but people I have around me now are people who I want to keep forever. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Okay that's it. I got geli with myself for being so cheesy. Yikes!
That's all.

Thanks for reading! and for being my friends too!

Tuesday, 3 October 2017

Dearest Tiqah and Jihadi

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
Hi people!
I attended another wedding last week. And it was in Alor Setar, Kedah! My university friends and I never had the chance to travel together (actually we didn't have any money to go anywhere) so we were very excited! I managed the bus tickets and also the wedding gift! We bought Tiqah an oven so she can bake fancy things for her husband (or bake her husband if they ever fight *GOD FORBID. NO!*) 
There were 8 of us and we decided to meet at TBS. Our bus to Alor Setar was at 11.30 pm, Thursday and I chose quite a well-known bus company so we all will be comfortable only to be disappointed that the bus for us was actually pretty old and worn out. Anyway, no choice. Still got to ride the bus or else, we have to walk to Alor Setar. So we boarded the bus and due to few matters, we arrived in Alor Setar around 7.30 am the next day. It was raining and cold and some of us brought really large bags like they will be staying together with Tiqah after the wedding's done (REALLY PEOPLE???).
Despite the gloomy morning, we were all pretty cheerful and I met new friends who were as crazy as my old ones. (GOD, GRANT ME SANE AND NORMAL FRIENDS PLEASE. AAMIIN) Tiqah had arranged transportation for us all so we all just had to get into the car and in few minutes, we arrived at the homestay. Finally, a bed. We could not sleep with stomach so hungry. Bibs, Kak Sya and myself went out to buy breakfast and mannnnnn, nasi lemak is still RM1 in Kedah!
Stomach filled and we took turn ironing our outfits for Tiqah's akad nikah. I couldn't believe my crazy funny and kindhearted roommate was getting married at that time and well, I really have nothing to say except congrats and please be happy both of you. So, few pictures from Tiqah's akad nikah.
You were gorgeous, Tiq! Hahahahahaha
 You really were. *teary eyes* Tiqah was gorgeous. I hope she farts less after this haha
 This girl so gatal. She definitely belongs to golongan wajib kahwin. Lucky, got married early. Alhamdulillah.
I hope both of you will always be crazy for each other, deeply in love, forever and ever.
 Winnie's playing hide and seek and Tracy was stealing Rosmah's look. Haha way to go girls!
 Tiqah was not the only happy person. This one also in love, everyone. Sorry Bibs, I have to.
p/s: I heard her favourite phrase now is; Bye, baby. Heheh
Not the best picture but at least we had everyone in this picture including Tiqah's schoolmates. Tracy was so busy arranging her shawl hahaha she still look dashing like Rosmah tho. Weehuuu!
End of Friday. The reception ceremony was on Saturday and it was held at the hall in front of the homestay. Fuhh if ot's not for Tiqah, I would have been going by wearing my seluar pelikat and tudung sarung since it's so near. But, it's for our dear Tiqah so we put on our most maroon outfits except for Bibi that little kid. She chose to wear yellow! What a rebel you were Bibi. 
All the pretty dara inu(s) and mek kelate and there I was, a tapioca. Pfft. -.-
Trying to recreate a poto we took during our foundation days. If only I grew taller. I could have been the one standing at the back. hmmph! Look at Tiqah everyone. She's practically glowing with all the happiness. :')
A group photo with the bride and the groom. Yeay!
With Kak Siti and Tracy. Tracy reminds me a lot about Loles while Kak Siti remind me of Kwang Soo (betrayal, lies etc etc LOL)
These two girls went around spreading weird cursing like TEKIK MANOK and so what not. 
Kak Siti bought new iPhone 7 Plus so of course. Her phone became everyone's phone that day kehkeh. Everyone smiled sincerely but Bibs that little rebel sh*t looked all smug and smirk wow wow. Hot hot hot.
Anyway, for Tiqah and Jihadi, I hope both of you will love each other (madly, deeply, crazily) for now and always. Both of you complemented each other very well. It's like watching two matching pieces of puzzle. Jihadi, you are truly lucky and blessed to have Tiqah in your life. Know that - despite her noisy sleep, her stupid and lame jokes, her brutal way of talking, her random farts, her loud laughs and all her ugly habits, she is lovely and she will love you endlessly and unconditionally. 
And Tiqah, you have met the greatest guy. All your dreams we once talked about, I pray nothing but for them to become true. You are halfway there and I know you will be more than happy with him. You will make a good wife, just like you make a good friend to all of us. And sooner, you will make a good mother too. *sobs sobs*
I still can't believe that my roommate has got married. It was only yesterday we tried pulling each other's towel after showers. T___T. I could have hugged her because I am soooo happy for her but please, no body contact hahah. Anyway, it was really an honour to be invited as part of their big day. We did not do much for the wedding but their hospitality was really warm and lovely. Thank you so so much and I pray that this marriage and all the happiness that come with it will last until jannah. Aamiin.
Oh, thank you to Kak Keyna, Kak Sya, Bibs, KAK TRACY, Winnie, Mielalala, Kak Siti and Kak Elly. It was a fun trip! If only we knew each other earlier, I would already be in Hospital Gila. LOL. See y'all on Convocation Day!
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