A Student Again

 بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيم

Hi people!

I completed my degree last May and after I have finished enjoying my very much blessed raya, I started looking jobs in my hometown. I applied for tuition teacher, kindergarten teacher and guru ganti as well. I was not looking for high-paying job but rather a job that can actually enrich my experiences and develop my skills. After two interviews and two disappointments, I ended up jobless. T___T. So I went back to my previous job - writing assignments and designing blogs. And oh ya! I actually started translating and content writing short articles for a website! So thrilled!

But still, I wanted to teach so bad. I miss my students, I miss the hustle of preparing lessons, having fun with the class and talking to my colleagues. I was and am determined to teach. I like teaching soooo much especially when it comes to secondary students. While I was busy doing all those small jobs, I actually applied for my master degree at UKM. I remember telling myself that once I have finished my degree, that's it for me. I won't further my study. Degree is troublesome enough. But there I was, applying for master with such big hopes. XD

Around August, I received an email telling me I have been accepted for Master in English Language Studies at UKM. Alhamdulillah. I was very grateful and excited because I had always wanted to study at IPTA because I had enough of IPTS hahaha. I don't mean anything bad. I just want to experience studying in IPTA. I just want to experience the differences. So I registered on last September.

A STUDENT AGAIN *yeayyyyy*

Master study is AH-MA-ZING! But boyyyyy, it is exhausting! I have to read and read and read. Mind you, reading is my favourite, maybe my ULTIMATE favourite but reading scholarly articles is not my forte. I took around 4 weeks to finish reading three articles and that was because the deadline scared me that I decided to read them.

My November schedule is not cool at all. 

I didn't remember sitting for discussion in library during my degree years lol. It's not bad actually.

Library is fine, I guess.

But it's been almost three months and it started growing on me. I can't believe I'm saying this, but there are times when I'm actually feel inclined to look for more reading materials. Lololol. But of course, not necessarily I read them after I found them. Haha. Don't be deceived y'all. But yeah, I started to feel okay with all the reading. But going to class? Dang, I still feel all giddy and excited for every class. I would like to think it as a positive thing because feeling happy for class is good, right?

There are times when I feel the work loads are too much but I brace myself. I'm doing this for my parents who I've let down during my SPM. So, I just think that I should go extra miles to show them that I actually take my education seriously and I really want to redeem my SPM result. I pray that I will be granted enough strength to complete this course. Aamiin.

EXTRA:

Lemme share with you how abang cafe took my order. I asked for Nasi Goreng Kampung Pedas and he key-ed in Nasi Goreng Kampung pedasssss gile. OMG do you have to be so extra??!

The amount of chilies in my friend's sup daging. I counted it guys. 23 chilies. For a small pack of sup daging. They are so extra.  

But food are cheap in IPTA. I'm super happyyyyy! :D

That's all for now.
Thanks for reading and have a blessed day, everyone!

False Frustration

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Hi people!

I've been in relationship with my significant other for 4 years and few months, I think. We started off as friends and after school, things started to look serious and I decided to give it a go since I felt like I was big enough to handle feelings and emotional problems. LOL. He's amazing and very understanding. I was lucky enough to have him but is he lucky to have me? Kahkah. I'm dramatic and I tend to run away during fights. It's not nice and I am always scolded for this kind of attitude.

Anyway, we once had a terrible fight because I felt neglected and ignored. Hahaha I know it's stupid but it sure did not feel stupid at that time. I was being a bit dramatic but he understood me way too much, he saw and expected everything beforehand. Danggg. After almost an hour, we both came to a decision that we should talk. WhatsApp was not enough as our texts could be read in the wrong or different intonation and of course, will lead to many more misunderstandings.

So I called him. Since I always pour my heart out, I asked him if he ever felt frustrated or disappointed with me. I wanted him to be honest with me. So he said, yes. My heart broke but I knew that I had to know what did I do wrong so I could change myself for us. I asked him to list things that frustrate him about me, one by one.

He started with cactus. He asked me if I remember about the cactus he bought me? I said yes. It was the first gift after we confessed to each each other and such a bizarre one too. I never had a plant as a gift before so of course, I was very happy with that. I asked what about that cactus and us that disappointed him? He said, how could I leave that cactus behind when he went to Cameron Highland just to buy me that very cactus? I was dumbfounded. And then I laughed.

Because I still had that freaking cactus with me! I changed the pot once and bought new compost twice. I WENT THROUGH ALL THE HUSTLE TO BRING THAT CACTUS HOME FROM KELANA JAYA. Imagine guys, taking home a thorny growing cactus in a bus from Kelana Jaya. I laughed some more because actually guys, he was the one who left the cactus behind. He finished his foundation study at UiTM and just forgot about that cactus when he was packing for home.

He stunned and seriously asking if I was being serious. I said yes. I brought that cactus home. It survived for two years before it got wilted because of the inconsistent weather in my hometown. I said I could show pictures of that cactus if he wanted to see it. Then he laughed nervously and said sorry because he didn't remember leaving his cactus. Well, forgetting about that cactus is understandable but from where did he get the idea that I'm the one leaving the cactus behind? SMH.

This whole situation really made me realise that men are really forgetful. But mine is worrying. He's forgetful and tend to plant new and FALSE memory in his head. God, please save him and his terrible memory. Anyway, I had a good laugh that night and I could feel all the frustration went away. It's crucial to talk to each other when you have problems, not talking about each other with some other people. This is his philosophy by the way.

Anyway, be it your family, boyfriend, fiancee and of course, your friends - ALWAYS CHERISH THEM. I am not really blessed in the look department lol, but God send me loads of good friends. I have people who keep supporting me through thick and thin. Sure, we fought, we made fun of each other and hurl vocal abuses when we had the chances to, yet I'm really thankful for everyone in my life. I have lost some of friends throughout the years of not keeping in touch with them and of course, because of myself but people I have around me now are people who I want to keep forever. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Okay that's it. I got geli with myself for being so cheesy. Yikes!
That's all.

Thanks for reading! and for being my friends too!

Dearest Tiqah and Jihadi

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Hi people!

I attended another wedding last week. And it was in Alor Setar, Kedah! My university friends and I never had the chance to travel together (actually we didn't have any money to go anywhere) so we were very excited! I managed the bus tickets and also the wedding gift! We bought Tiqah an oven so she can bake fancy things for her husband (or bake her husband if they ever fight *GOD FORBID. NO!*) 

There were 8 of us and we decided to meet at TBS. Our bus to Alor Setar was at 11.30 pm, Thursday and I chose quite a well-known bus company so we all will be comfortable only to be disappointed that the bus for us was actually pretty old and worn out. Anyway, no choice. Still got to ride the bus or else, we have to walk to Alor Setar. So we boarded the bus and due to few matters, we arrived in Alor Setar around 7.30 am the next day. It was raining and cold and some of us brought really large bags like they will be staying together with Tiqah after the wedding's done (REALLY PEOPLE???).

Despite the gloomy morning, we were all pretty cheerful and I met new friends who were as crazy as my old ones. (GOD, GRANT ME SANE AND NORMAL FRIENDS PLEASE. AAMIIN) Tiqah had arranged transportation for us all so we all just had to get into the car and in few minutes, we arrived at the homestay. Finally, a bed. We could not sleep with stomach so hungry. Bibs, Kak Sya and myself went out to buy breakfast and mannnnnn, nasi lemak is still RM1 in Kedah!

Stomach filled and we took turn ironing our outfits for Tiqah's akad nikah. I couldn't believe my crazy funny and kindhearted roommate was getting married at that time and well, I really have nothing to say except congrats and please be happy both of you. So, few pictures from Tiqah's akad nikah.

You were gorgeous, Tiq! Hahahahahaha

 You really were. *teary eyes* Tiqah was gorgeous. I hope she farts less after this haha

 This girl so gatal. She definitely belongs to golongan wajib kahwin. Lucky, got married early. Alhamdulillah.

I hope both of you will always be crazy for each other, deeply in love, forever and ever.

 Winnie's playing hide and seek and Tracy was stealing Rosmah's look. Haha way to go girls!

 Tiqah was not the only happy person. This one also in love, everyone. Sorry Bibs, I have to.

p/s: I heard her favourite phrase now is; Bye, baby. Heheh

Not the best picture but at least we had everyone in this picture including Tiqah's schoolmates. Tracy was so busy arranging her shawl hahaha she still look dashing like Rosmah tho. Weehuuu!

End of Friday. The reception ceremony was on Saturday and it was held at the hall in front of the homestay. Fuhh if ot's not for Tiqah, I would have been going by wearing my seluar pelikat and tudung sarung since it's so near. But, it's for our dear Tiqah so we put on our most maroon outfits except for Bibi that little kid. She chose to wear yellow! What a rebel you were Bibi. 

All the pretty dara inu(s) and mek kelate and there I was, a tapioca. Pfft. -.-

Trying to recreate a poto we took during our foundation days. If only I grew taller. I could have been the one standing at the back. hmmph! Look at Tiqah everyone. She's practically glowing with all the happiness. :')

A group photo with the bride and the groom. Yeay!

With Kak Siti and Tracy. Tracy reminds me a lot about Loles while Kak Siti remind me of Kwang Soo (betrayal, lies etc etc LOL)

These two girls went around spreading weird cursing like TEKIK MANOK and so what not. 

Kak Siti bought new iPhone 7 Plus so of course. Her phone became everyone's phone that day kehkeh. Everyone smiled sincerely but Bibs that little rebel sh*t looked all smug and smirk wow wow. Hot hot hot.

Anyway, for Tiqah and Jihadi, I hope both of you will love each other (madly, deeply, crazily) for now and always. Both of you complemented each other very well. It's like watching two matching pieces of puzzle. Jihadi, you are truly lucky and blessed to have Tiqah in your life. Know that - despite her noisy sleep, her stupid and lame jokes, her brutal way of talking, her random farts, her loud laughs and all her ugly habits, she is lovely and she will love you endlessly and unconditionally. 

And Tiqah, you have met the greatest guy. All your dreams we once talked about, I pray nothing but for them to become true. You are halfway there and I know you will be more than happy with him. You will make a good wife, just like you make a good friend to all of us. And sooner, you will make a good mother too. *sobs sobs*

I still can't believe that my roommate has got married. It was only yesterday we tried pulling each other's towel after showers. T___T. I could have hugged her because I am soooo happy for her but please, no body contact hahah. Anyway, it was really an honour to be invited as part of their big day. We did not do much for the wedding but their hospitality was really warm and lovely. Thank you so so much and I pray that this marriage and all the happiness that come with it will last until jannah. Aamiin.

Oh, thank you to Kak Keyna, Kak Sya, Bibs, KAK TRACY, Winnie, Mielalala, Kak Siti and Kak Elly. It was a fun trip! If only we knew each other earlier, I would already be in Hospital Gila. LOL. See y'all on Convocation Day!

Thanks for reading!

My First Driving Lesson

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Salam and hi people!

I'm 22 years old and I never feel like having a driving license is really important. I know that it is actually important but I just feel like I can live without it. Studying in Kelana Jaya, I can reach lot of places by buses and LRT. And ever since Uber and Grab exist, life is so much easier. So, I never feel like I need a driving license.

But then, life changed. I finished degree and came home for a good few months before I start planning my career path. I went to two interviews and both of them asking me about me having driving license or not. Mannnn, is it a must now? Family members started to pressure me abut that. So stressful lah. I no longer can use the excuse of commuting by bus or LRT because they do not exist in Terengganu. 

Well the buses do exist but they don't cover much area. Every time I'm going out my super kind hearted friends will pick me up and send me home. I am so blessed to have my friends. I love y'all.

Long short, I decided to start my driving lesson. First time driving, IT WAS TERRIBLE. I stopped at the middle of two way road. Half of the car was in my lane while the other half was in the opposite lane. People around assured me that I will be fine and I will enjoy driving. Well, I. DID. NOT.

My first time driving, I was so nervous that I had my mental blocked. I could not listen to any of the instructions from the instructor and the engine kept turning off. Four times, I think. I am an embarrassment!!! That time, I felt like I was really stupid and a failure. LOL. Still think that way actually. To add salt to the injury, my legs are short they could not reach the clutch pedal properly. URGHHH.

Anyway, I had another driving lesson tomorrow. Writing this entry just to vent off my frustration towards driving. Hhahah. I think am not destined for driving. But still, I will just work hard to get my driving license and maybe will never ever drive. LOL. Pray for me y'all. Pakcik Teksi, Uber, Grab and buses, I never appreciate y'all enough. I will always use more public transport after this. I promise. *sobs*

Y'ALL ARE HEROS! *and driving still suck* 

Thanks for reading my rant about nonsense thing like this. Hahahah. 

Good Ol' Games

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

*SUPER LONG POST Y'ALL*

Salam and Hi, people!

Last night, I had a fun conversation with my second sister and her husband. We talked about the good old times when our family had our first PC. It was Acer desktop with blue colour CPU and big translucent on/off button. My mom set up a password on that desktop so only she had the access to the fun, exciting games. Three of us - kak ngoh, cik mat and me had an hour each to play everyday. Looking back, I am glad kakak was in boarding school and rarely home or else we will fight worse than we were to play game on the computer.

The computer was in the family from 2002 until 2012 (I think) and undergone many operations because we were so rough with it and we did not have any basic understanding about technology. Haha you can say we were a bunch of newbies back then. Anyway, I was in boarding school since 2008. Every semester break, I was so excited to play and score the best only to get disappointed. You want to know why? Well, my dear mother and father basically spent their free time battling each other in the games while their cute, lovely kinds went to school. THEY. SCORE. SOME. HIGH. FREAKING. SCORES. WHICH. NONE. OF. OUR. SIBLINGS. CAN. TOP. OFF.

Urghh. It was so annoying to give your best only to know that it's not even eligible to be in the Top 10! Anyway, do you guys remember your favourite video games back the? I do! Even though I am not a good player, I enjoy playing them. Lemme share with y'all and tell me if we had any common fav games!

1. Chocolatier 2 - Secret Ingredients

This game took my social life away. I went out playing the bicycle lesser than ever, didn't play in the river as much and skipped watching my favourie cartoons just to play with it. It was so so so FUN! The player had to go around the world, collecting the best ingredient for the chocolate. And then, we had to design the billboard, the chocolate wrapper and manage the inventory. Oh, when we found the unique ingredients, we have to haggle for the best price as well! I learnt the word haggle from this game hehehe.

2. Iggle Pop!

Anyone remember this?? OMG they were so cuteeee! We can choose the hero and then proceed to save those colourful cute furball. The smoke like things were the villains. They will break the chain of the iggles we save. The iggles will be in chain behind us before we deliver them home according to the colour. Anddddd, the more iggle in the same colour (sequence) the more marks for combo you get! Weeeehuuuu. Oh, we can eat the FREEZE things and put the villains frozen for a while. I like this game so much because it's so cute heheh. The sound effects were also cute hehehe some more.

3. Bomberman

I have to admit that I don't know much about this game but I still remember the thrilling experience of it. It's a really simple game but I had so much fun with it.

4. Tumblebugs

Ahhhh these colourful sphere bugs. This was one of the games with my mom's name as the high scorer. It was nerve wrecking when you got all the wrong colours yet the bugs were all closed to the hole. This game also has nice sound effects. I like the colours and the levels. Sometimes, when the name register was full (not only for this game), our siblings play dirty. We either delete others' name or we rename the name with high level. Hehehe.

5. Feeding Frenzy 

Feeding Frenzy *sound effect* Need any explanation about this game? I dont think so. It was fun playing this game but the excitement can never beat the one felt while playing Chocolatier Secret Ingredients.

6. Pizza Frenzy

This one let me created my own pizza as well. I discovered my Italian side in this game. Haha. Remember what happens when you took order from a thief? The police sirens? Ahhhhhh good game, people. Goooood game.

7. Diner Dash

It's your girl, Flo! Damnnnnn this game so nice I struggled placing those angry customers because like I have said, I was not a good player. I was not fast enough to excel in this kind of game. My sister, kakngoh was the ace. She scored every level, mannn.

There were also few games with the word Dash if I am not mistaken. I remember the Wedding Dash. Uuuu that one was so fun. Choosing all the food and place weeee. So nice. But also, nerve wrecking because it was chaotic.

8. Plantasia 

Weird plants, everyone. Weird plants. My sister confessed to me last night how much she hated the soil with stones and weeds because we had to dig the stones/weeds out, prepare the soil and after that only plant the weird plants. If we were out of energy or spells, then the stones or weeds came back. According to her, it was tiring hahaha. I dont really remember what's the point of planting these weirdos but some of them were pretty so okay, I'll play with y'all.

9. Chuzzle Deluxe

It's the popping colourful furball, people! When you matched certain amounts of these colourful balls, they will expand and POP! The sound effects were funny and I love them because they were cute and their eyes moved around when you slides them hehe.

10. Insaniquarium 

Well, according to this game, I was one successful aquarium keeper. My fish even breed diamonds. Beat that, Aquaria staff! But in all seriousness, this game got me hook up as well. I like it so much because they were err cute hehe and they also breed unusual things or have amazing power.  

11. Fish Tycoon

Y'all not only I bred fish super successfully, I was freaking rich coz I was a fish tycoon! Fuhh, tried so hard to breed unique or special fish. I even wrote a note about what type of fish with what type of fish will produce what type of fish. If I am this hardworking during my SPM year, I will be huge mannn. But then, there was big KPop wave and I was drown in it and the rest was history. *sobs in corner*

12. Cake Mania

This one taught me how to bribe people with food. So y'all, I learnt that when people got angry, calm them down with free cupcakes! I remember that I can upgrade everything in my cake shop. Even the tray to put the cake also can be upgraded into two tier. Mind-blowing lol. Until today, I havent change my mind. Christmas shaped cake with the purple icing is the ugliest. 

13. Family Feud

I love this game because I feel smart playing it. Hahaha. No actually, some of the questions were really nonsense, not to mention the answers. But I had a grand time answering and guessing what will be the top answers and then laugh myself silly when the top answer is revealed.

14. Jojo Fashion Show

This game is most popular among the girls. Well, of course it should be popular. It let us dress the models with beautiful, sexy and stylish clothing up to our taste. Hehehe I was never good in fashion so I didnt play this very well. 

15. Inspector Gadget

This one was as fun! Jumping around, grabbing food and fighting off enemies. I dont really remember what else in this game but I know I enjoy it very much back then.

Well, these games are among what I played when I was younger. There were lot more I didnt list - Burger Story, Zumba, Alice Greenfingers etc etc. What a goooooooood time. Now I am older I also feel a bit sad to realise that back then we had Game Boy Simulator with loads of amazing games. There were more than 150++ games but as newbies back then, we didnt appreciate it enough. Now I spend time phone playing Ramboat and Design Home on tiny screen. *sobs*

Feel free to comment and add on for any games I missed! Or simply just tell me if there is any common favourite game we share!

Thanks for reading.

Bye!

How to Create Signature in PDF

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

People, this was me when I read the invoice for my graduation and convocation fees. And I got more shocked when I knew that my scholarship may or may not be paying these fees. WHATTTT? *internal scream* No, actually I really screamed. Now I have to whack my poor brain thinking all possible solutions how to pay all these fees if my scholarship chooses not to pay for them.

So, I emailed the company idk what are they but I know that they manage us, all the scholars under Yayasan Peneraju. They asked me to write a letter, a formal request letter for Peneraju, duly signed. What is duly signed? At that time idk either. So my mentor said that I have to prepare a letter in PDF format and make sure my signature is hand-written.

I am not the brightest child in whole wide world, y'all. So I was thinking of typing the letter in Words, print it out, sign it and scan it into PDF. Then, I will email it to Peneraju. Hah! I am so outdated and stupid. Guys, actually there are super easy ways to sign in your PDF letters. Come let Teacher Ba teaches you how to. hiks.

1. Write your normal letter in Words with space for signature.

Like dis okay y'all? Make sure the space can fit your signature nicely. 

2. Save your letter in PDF.

4 years in university and I only learn this during my final year. Well like I said, I'm not the brightest kid, people. Not even in the class.

3. Open letter in PDF format.

 Click on the 'fill and sign' option in the right bar,

 4. Click on sign bar, then choose add signature.

Almost there guys. 

5. Click on image.

 So you can choose how would you like to sign your signature. I choose image. Easy guys. You just have to take a picture of your signature. Select that picture or image and it will look like...

6. THIS!

 See? It will look like this. Now you click apply. 

ANDDDDDD.

7. Place it!

Place there and just save! Easy right??!

After I have done with the letter, I beamed at myself you know? It felt surreal hahaha. I thought it was a very difficult task until I found this accidentally. You know what I looked like when I was done with the letter? I luk laik dis gais.

But then I suddenly realised that there was no guarantee of my scholarship paying for my convocation and graduation fees. So I went back to my old face. 

Pray for me guys!

Bye.